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HoochieMamaAmongPansies
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Birthday: 5/14/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: clever remark
Expertise: clever remark
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/20/2004
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| I love my place, I love my kittens, but maybe a little too much. All I want to do now is hang out here and cuddle with my kittens, I just love to be at my home. Still having fun, but tonight I am feeling a reetle bummed out. just moody i guess. san francisco trip kind of turned into a nightmare due in very large part to the person we travelled with, although the shows were cool. I'm kinda ready to get back to school, and not excited for rex to leave for two months. He's gone now for a week and it's already making me sad. At least I have my babies.
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| I didn't want to know that adults get lonely and depressed too, that older people have just as many problems as everyone else. I don't want to think about dads getting heavier and more depressed, or the fact that even hell-mothers aren't just enemies, but they are, or at least were once, real people too. Everyone's always talking about how hard being an adolescent is, so I just assumed that once you become an adult it's not so hard. Divorce rates are always sad because of broken families and torn children, but you don't really think about adults going through the same relationship pain teens do, even worse because their lives are entirely built around each other. Where the fuck do you go from there? And what the fuck do you do when you realize that no matter how old you get, no matter how grown up you are, people can still hurt you, friends can still desert you, partners can still break your heart, and it's never ever going to get any easier than it is right now.
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| I have decided that I get annoyed to easily now. How does one fix that? I do not know... I feel as if I am too sensitive to certain people's annoying qualities because i let people be not very nice to me for a while and forgave too much for my own good. But now I am always annoyed with people, and the new friends, although, mostly the girls and girls are exceptionally annoying and fickle, get on my nerves a lot. Not so amusing, I wish it did not bother me so much. But I do love my Sarah Tackish, I am excited to live with her. I know I'm repeating myself, but christ things will be so much better when I know where I'm living in a month. I wish I did not have the stupidest looking sunburn ever right now. I hope Beezlebub and Balthazar are unaffected.
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| So now I'm 19, I'm living back at home, and my father is vacuuming the house in a ver passive agressive way... on the upside I've seen a bunch of my friends lately, most everyone was nice to me on my real live birfday, and hopefully in a month and a half I'll have found and moved into a place so I don't have to worry about passive agressive vacuuming anymore. It's weird having everyone start to trickle back for the summer. I dunno, it's nice, but everyone has been so apart for so long, and there are some people I really don't even feel like talking to let alone hanging out with that just assume everythings gonna be back to normal. I just want my place, that's all I care about right now. I'm working a ton, 3-4 days a week at buffalo and 2 at the karate studio, which is exhausting but also helps out with money. Although my luck hasn't been the best lately, ticket=traffic school, rear-ended apparently= money for my father, not me, and Kay and I haven't lived together in a while and it's not going as smoothly as hoped. Oh well, I guess I'll figure it out eventually. Meh.
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